MY DILEMMA: FAKE FRIENDS

Hi, in this blog i wanted to talk about my life. 

I know this may be boring but it might help some of you and also me.

First topic for my blog is fake friends: in our life at least one you tought that, maybe, one of your friends  is a fake one, but if you didn't than you are very lucky.

The friend in question in my best frined: we met in the first year of high school and we became friends because i joined her group 1 month after the start of school and from that day we became closer.

At first she was sweet, funny and all that; we talked every day and not about school at all. 

At the end of our 1st high school year we were so close and durig the summer break i helped her change her style and everything, she was already beautiful but I helped her became more confident in herself and with my help she went form being a 7/10 to be a 9/10 only beacouse of me.

In our second year at first everithing was fine but somenthing changed: she didn't respond to the videos i sent her, i ignored this thing and later with time i stopped sending videos and we started to talk little outside of school, at firts i wal like yeah it's fine maybe she's busy but when the 3rd year started everything changed: outside of school we didn't talk no more, she texed me only for school notes, homework and things like that, even when we hangout i was the only talking tryng to start a coversation and I'm not someone who usually starts ones.

Now it's summer break and in our city there is, on the same day of every year, a traditional party and we went together but for the all night she was looking for her sister and when i mean all night i really mean it, during the night whe talked bearly 15 minutes. At the end of the night she was still loking for her sister and i was following her around but then she dissapear luckly i was with my sister so i wasn't alone, later my "best frind " called me and she told me she was going to her sister and that she didn't think that we would meet again so we said bye.

At this time me and my sister went to the station to wait my other sister to pick us up, on our way to the station we met my best frind she didn't stop she just greated us whit her hand and I was cool she was probably going to her sister. 

We arrived at the station and after 30-40 minutes I saw my best friend, her sister and 2 guys walk right past me and she didn't say hi or something, so i thought maybe she didn't saw me but you had to be blind.

After 2 weeks i still think about that night and she texted me once and she invited me to the sea the night before the day and i told i couldn't because I felt like i was the spare wheel, she always ask me to do somenthing the night before and i cannot ask my parents to go out the night before the day because they work and i live far from the city (30-40 min in bus) and someone have to take me to the bus stop becouse walking ther it will take 1 hour and it's too dangerous because there are no sidewalk; I told her to not write me the night before to do somenthig but apperently she doesn't want to understand.

In this 2 weeks i tought about it and I realized that she is not the person i met 3 years ago, now i feel like she only want to flex her beauty and that every man is looking at her and honestly I hate this behaviour.

While I was thinking she went every day to the sea without inviting me but when I went to the sea with my sisters she got mad beacouse i didn't tell her.

I also met a friend in Spain  and I think she is jealous becouse i was texting to her in class and she saw that and she said you still talking whit her, with annoyed voice, and I said yes she is funny and she looked me in a strange way and while writing this episode i realized that she is always looking at my phone and she know my passwor but I can't look at hers and i don't know her password that's unfair because i always thougt tha friendship is if you did somenthig for me i do somenthing for you, i hope you understand. 

I think i said everything and my questions are How can I find out if she really is my friend ? and should I talk to her about my impression about her ? if yes how do I start?

Thank you for reading my dilemma and i apologize if my english is bad but it isn't my fist lenguages and i accept every advice.